Oceans will part

16Nov09

If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shine
In my life Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand


I’ve been listening and listening to this song again and again.

And i keep listening to the first verse, ” when my heart has grown cold, your mercy will unfold. as you open my eyes to the work of your hand.”

Sometimes i wonder if i ever opened my eyes to what God really wanted. I’m still sinful, i still don’t let go, don’t forgive readily at times, i don’t love enough, i sin, i dislike, i put down others. But still even in times of despair, hopelessness, pain and loneliness, i’m never truly alone.

Jesus is always with me, running with me this race, whispering if i bother to hear, reminding me how much he loves me. Even when i put on spiritual ear plugs to shut it out subconsciously, he never stops calling out. He keeps saying, “struggle and fight! don’t give up! come home to me and keep going!”

His mercy will last till the very end of the days.

I just want to put my little sliver of hope. No pretense. No protecting my heart. To keeping walls up towards Jesus.

I don’t know how to do it perfectly because i’m not perfect.

But i just want to hold a hope in the fact that knowing is the first step to growing.

Father, I just pray and pray that you teach me and discipline me. That in the tough times, in the struggles, to remind me that this hope that i find in you is the most important thing.

Against hope, Abraham believed, David believed, Daniel believed, Joseph believed.

Now its my turn to believed.

And see my Red Sea,

Turn to Land as i open my eyes to the work of YOUR hand.

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15Nov09

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one man,

12Nov09

slacked a day off.

with all the calls of ORD resounding around me, i prefer to rescind into my cosy hole of seclusion, coming out to only those who have a moderate sense of control over their wits and excitement.

sometimes to really thank God for today:

1. playing boh- nanza! at starbucks! (the company was worth more!)

2. the dinner of high class zha jiang mian ( must say crystal jade has produced the best so far!) but then again the company wins out! ( thanks mortie (:)

3.  having lots of time in my mind.

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glass heart,

09Nov09

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growing up;

05Nov09

Like a butterfly evolves, so do we.

Our mind morph from stage to stage as it responds to the ever changing world around us.

I realise that as i grow, my thoughts transmute themselves and my concerns swallow me whole. In this transition face, my greatest fear is losing sight of the Throne on my life and who sits on it.

My soul needs a lot of searching.

But i just need to keep fighting.

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TGIT!

04Nov09

Thank God its Today and its going to be Thursday soon enough.

Counting my blessings:

1. For allowing my train to continue moving although there was an announcement warning for a 5 min stoppage! ( i was rushing to watch joyce’s prac!)

2. For reminding me that i always have a second chance (including one that i really need to pray for to be closer to him than ever.

3. To have Songjun consistently reminding me about the things i’ve said! Sometimes i forget and it really makes me a horrible person to work with. Thank God for all you guys from my cg (:

4. Sustaining me when i’m down. Hoping in me when i neglect Him. And always always loving me.

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consuming fire;

01Nov09

God’s fire needs to consume to purify, convict, empower and transform.

He consumes the evil, the darkness, the sin, the advent of depravity that lurks deep within our hearts.

But the greatest thing is that he knows that we aren’t always able to realise and overcome, so he shines in his torch deep into the recesses to give us hope of a life free from these shackles. So that in the darkness we might walk on.

And some time or another he reminds us so powerfully that he’ll always be with us that his promises stand forever.

Worship was incredible today. Spirit filled, Spirit led. Not by my power but by the spirit of God.

I’m really so touched and reminded of the responsibility we have for our camps that everyday is an opportunity, every moment can be a life changing moment granted by God. What he needs is for us to remember his mercy and love and shine like a star in the darkness.

The best thing is we don’t do it alone.

We do it together as a caregroup, as a unit, as a ministry,

Our hearts as one and encouraged and supported by brothers whom we can trust fully and unreservedly.

If one man can make a difference,

A group of Godly men can change the world.

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in the darkness,

20Oct09

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faith & doubt;

07Oct09

a good few hours spent with a dear brother named David, was infinitely rewarding for my soul, mind and understanding (: Thank you for being there for me bro and everyday i hope we get to know each other more and to serve better together! (: We should have more Hell’s highway fun (:

Besides that, i’ve been falling sick an awful lot recently. Fever twice and a bad cough that refuses to go. it makes me feel like i’m a germ tank! My parents account it to a lack of sleep. I account it to a lack of exercise. You won’t believe it but i jogged up and down a short strip of marble also known as my hallway, to break some sweat, little less than half an hour ago. But i loved every moment.

Every time i spent some peace and quiet, i wish time would be kinder to extend itself for me a little more..

a few doubts also convinced me to spend…

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Love

06Sep09

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