glass heart,

growing up;

Like a butterfly evolves, so do we.

Our mind morph from stage to stage as it responds to the ever changing world around us.

I realise that as i grow, my thoughts transmute themselves and my concerns swallow me whole. In this transition face, my greatest fear is losing sight of the Throne on my life and who sits on it.

My soul needs a lot of searching.

But i just need to keep fighting.

TGIT!

Thank God its Today and its going to be Thursday soon enough.

Counting my blessings:

1. For allowing my train to continue moving although there was an announcement warning for a 5 min stoppage! ( i was rushing to watch joyce’s prac!)

2. For reminding me that i always have a second chance (including one that i really need to pray for to be closer to him than ever.

3. To have Songjun consistently reminding me about the things i’ve said! Sometimes i forget and it really makes me a horrible person to work with. Thank God for all you guys from my cg (:

4. Sustaining me when i’m down. Hoping in me when i neglect Him. And always always loving me.

consuming fire;

God’s fire needs to consume to purify, convict, empower and transform.

He consumes the evil, the darkness, the sin, the advent of depravity that lurks deep within our hearts.

But the greatest thing is that he knows that we aren’t always able to realise and overcome, so he shines in his torch deep into the recesses to give us hope of a life free from these shackles. So that in the darkness we might walk on.

And some time or another he reminds us so powerfully that he’ll always be with us that his promises stand forever.

Worship was incredible today. Spirit filled, Spirit led. Not by my power but by the spirit of God.

I’m really so touched and reminded of the responsibility we have for our camps that everyday is an opportunity, every moment can be a life changing moment granted by God. What he needs is for us to remember his mercy and love and shine like a star in the darkness.

The best thing is we don’t do it alone.

We do it together as a caregroup, as a unit, as a ministry,

Our hearts as one and encouraged and supported by brothers whom we can trust fully and unreservedly.

If one man can make a difference,

A group of Godly men can change the world.

in the darkness,

faith & doubt;

a good few hours spent with a dear brother named David, was infinitely rewarding for my soul, mind and understanding (: Thank you for being there for me bro and everyday i hope we get to know each other more and to serve better together! (: We should have more Hell’s highway fun (:

Besides that, i’ve been falling sick an awful lot recently. Fever twice and a bad cough that refuses to go. it makes me feel like i’m a germ tank! My parents account it to a lack of sleep. I account it to a lack of exercise. You won’t believe it but i jogged up and down a short strip of marble also known as my hallway, to break some sweat, little less than half an hour ago. But i loved every moment.

Every time i spent some peace and quiet, i wish time would be kinder to extend itself for me a little more..

a few doubts also convinced me to spend…

Love

little children, little children!

i am just a little kid in God’s eyes.

Hope kids was incredible today, we learnt so much so much so much from it! a big THANK YOU to the staff and teachers at hope kids who had us and the kids who taught us so much through what they did.

In God’s eyes, we are little children. I just realised how much like a little kid i am! (: having my indignant moments, tantrum moments but mostly under the surface. But God covers all with his grace. Just like we accept little kids for who they are.

I realised that i’m a super phleg kind of person. I can just sit arnd the whole afternoon in the comfort of my little grey chair, in front of my lovely aircon and with the booming of my new, mini speakers. I love these moments which never seem to come by easy. without anything on my mind for the moment before something pops in.

Oh gosh, Father sometimes i wish you made it easy to be christian. But i know i’d rather not in the end (:

Still nothing beats a peaceful afternoon (:

fragile (once broken considered sold),

an excerpt:

Every single human is like a tiny glass cup.

There is a sign which reads

We are like that aren’t we?

Shattered by criticism, unclarified conflicts, unreturned feelings.

Just broken into itty bitty pieces.

Some run forever, trying to escape that fact.

Some lie to themselves so that they can hide the cracks which are already forming within.

Some take comfort in their seemingly flawless surfaces only to realise that they are imploding day by day.

Some hide in the crowd saying, ” I’m like everyone else.”

Humans are fragile. We escape, run, hide, deny ourselves that death will come eventually, that tests and obstacles will come and that we need something more than what the world can offer.

We hide in our company of our friends or behind wads of cash. We bask in recognition or fame only to struggle whether people actually like you for you.

We are guilty and ashamed but we dare not admit it because it would crumble our whole world.

The yawning void of needing something purposeful is shut out of our minds if not we’d go insane.

But is that what we are truly made to be?

A glass cup polished and used, made for His delight not for others to smash, crack or destroy.

Will you find delight in Him who will fix the cracks?

Or will you continue to be flung about carelessly.

We are the greatest work made by our Maker who loved us.

And because of that, im so grateful for his sacrifice (:

Thank you dear Jesus (:

- Cale

mirrors of diversity;

Day 2 of GC ended barely an hour ago.